I sat with Ben and Will on the train and Ben returned to a constant theme: how the whole course was just brainwashing.
‘But you knew that at the beginning,’ I countered.
‘I know, but it’s different from how I imagined.’
‘How?’
‘It’s working. I didn’t think it would work, but it’s working. I think I’m becoming a violent bastard.’
‘Don’t worry,’ said Will, ‘you’re still a wimp.’
Robert Twigger, Angry White Pyjamas.